Roller coaster ride....

That is my journey this fall.  There are so many things going on in my life that I just can't seem to sort it out.  It's kinda like riding a new roller coaster, you're not quite sure where the thrills are going to be or what lies ahead of you.  November 4th was a day of major change in this country and well...I think for most of us we need major change in our lives to make things better and set our selves up for the next.

Lately I've highly considered giving up my slight freedom of my beautiful apartment to live at home with my parents.  Something that is very hard for me because I've been living on my own with my own freedom for the last 7 years.  It's something that I feel is necessary so that I can make some major steps for the future.

I want to buy a house I'm sick and tired of paying rent for something I don't own.  As lovely as the concept is having freedom of space, your own place to call your home.  If you don't own it it's not worth it especially because I have a child, which I would LOVE to leave something behind for her when I pass, which will be a LONG TIME FROM NOW.  Especially during this economy buying homes just isn't that simple any more... and I WANT A HOME, a place that my daughter and future children (yes I want more in the future) can make memories sliding down the staircase bannister, running around the house playing tag, having sleep overs in the living room, movie night in mom and dad's bed.  Those are all things that I want to be able to have for them and my current living situation doesn't allow me to do that.

I don't want to make the mistake of not owning a home till my daughter is in high school.  It's something I experienced growing up, and shortly after my parents purchased the home, I moved out and grew up.  But now I feel like the biggest grown up decision will be to lower my pride, and hopefully crawl back to my parents to save a little bit of money for a larger future!!

Wish me luck...They'll be reading this soon since they get the e-mails of the updated blog feeds!!